11.11.24

dream count: 11

I spent most of the dream looking for him. I was searching from room to room, asking different people where he might be I have had this issue in multiple dreams where the numberes are constantly changing so I cant find something, but i dont realize im dreaming even regardless, i just accept the surrealist vision of the world as fact. I was in corridor to corridor, house to house, i was weaving through twisted hallways of motels trying to track him down with my own key in hand, i dont think i ever reached him but i did visualize our meeting many times. I am wondering if deep inside my brain he really does exist and I could stage a coup where I surround all pathways of my brain blocking his escape and I finally capture him and I can throw a party in celebration

my maws are on the prize

also, the anniversary is soon, still liking Hannibal in 2025. I have a lot of stuff to say and I am clueless to if I should dump it all on one page or dedicate time to seperate everything. Whatever

11.2.24

Conversation with a friend (From 8.31)

when did you fall in love with will graham? and what is your favorite look for him?

came about due to I was focusing on the elegance of his side profile and curls, My favorite look is probably right out of prison hair length. I like when he does himself up too but the way that the longer his hair gets -> the more the ends of his curls point upwards like little devil horns

I like every version of him obviously, but medium length hair, post canon scars and "predicted" personality (how he would progress from his behavior evident in the last few episodes of season 3) probably the best possible mix, So i like when he embraces his true self, glasses are cute but really ignore his potentional

I like him deeply in season 1 too but its so much him at his weakest, we never see it again and he pushes it so deep inside i want to see it crack open and fall out again.hes a very admirable person, so strong, able to neglect himself to get what he wants or needs. His life is so rough, i love the melancholy

So his vulnerability is held so closely to his chest (seen very briefly in Mizumono)

He replaces fear with anger very fast

“Youre irritable when afraid” “will graham runs on fear (his imagination)

I fell completely in love with him by the end of the show because I didnt know how we would turn out but it was pretty much perfect for me. Theres other characters i have liked briefly before Will that each had fascets of his personality but none embodied all the traits i am enamored with as best as him. My heart truly started leaping by twotl, ending recontexualized him soi could watch it again and againknowing him more

9.22.24

dream count: 10

We just talked

In my subconious he swims aroind.. like a fish!!!!!

9.15.24

dates are wrong

9.9.24

I spent some time trying to figure out a birthday to represent will, Because I have known him so long and its always been a bother that there is nothing for canon to work off in any adaptation. The two options i see ahead of me are the release of the Red Dragon (January 1st) or June 19 (the actors birthday) siiiince word of god that the characters ages reflect the actors (in the show) JUNE 19 would make him a Gemini, and January 1st a Capricorn

9.6.24

dream count: 9

I can barely recall it now but I think I spent a signifcant time posting an fan drawing of Will Graham on every single image board trying to express my awe

8.22.24

dream count: lets say 8

in this dream we were definitely not in universe. I dont remmeber much at all just that he was there and I interacted with him a lot i dream of him even when im not actively thinking of him in my day to day life

8.8.24

Will being a gothic progagonist [in season 3] makes me froth at the mouth Sometimes i wonder what music he listens to. Divinely still obsessed with him after all the time in the world will pass and I will drift but always come back to him. You are part of me forever you are special and i will never lose you or forget you because even if it werre possible your memory and residue would never fully leave the dredges of my minds interior walls.

7.28.24

PLaylist in no particular order

Every Body Breaks Down ? Suffering at the start of it all

Sweat ? "The sun is burning hot again On the hunter and the fisherman"

The Kiss ? Certainly a time in his life

The Becoming ? title. Album version too

The Boy With the Thorn in His Side ? "Behind the hatred there lies A murderous desire for love How can they look into my eyes And still they don't believe me?"

H. ? "Venomous voice tempts me, And drains me, bleeds me, Leaves me cracked and empty, Drags me down like some sweet gravity. The snake behind me hisses, What my damage could have been. My blood before me begs me, Open up my heart again." ... " I am too connected to you to slip away, fade away. Days away I still feel you touching me, changing me and considerately killing me."..."My fear begins to fade, Recalling all of the times I could have cried then. I should have cried then. As the walls come down and as I look in your eyes, My fear begins to fade, Recalling all of the times I have died, and will die. It's alright. I don't mind."my favorite for him

Howl ? The entire album is attributable to the whole show

Where I End and You Begin ? I will eat you alive and there will be no more lies

We Will Commit Wolf Murder ? pretty obvious, but Gallery Piece also reminds me of him a bit

may be updated on occasion, check back soon

7.14.24

4 dreams in a row of a very special man! In the end of one his face was covered in blood the same way a cheetah looks after a good meal

6.10.24

5.15.24

The story of how wemet

Animals he reminds me of: Fish (He likes this), Dogs, Wolf (Wolf in sheeps Clothing), Lamb, Moths, sometimes. Insects in general. He did a study called "The Standard Monograph on Time of Death Based on Insect Activity" I would give it a read.I will leave a review: ★★★★★.